We then drove to the store where we always get our balloons blown up to release at Wyatt's grave. I held back the tears until we got to the car. The memory of 3 years ago when we filled up our first blue balloon came over me. We had told the kids on the day we found out if we were having a boy or a girl that we would bring a balloon for each of them at school either a pink or blue balloon. As soon as they would see it they would know if they were having a little brother or sister. I remember going to this store to blow up a blue balloons and the excitement we felt knowing we would be having another little boy. I was especially excited for Tyler because he wanted a little brother sooooo badly. I will never forget the smile on Tyler's face as he turned the corner to the school and saw the blue balloon. His prayers had been answered and he was going to have a little brother. It hit me yesterday as we were blowing up our Wyatt balloons how life can change so quickly. My heart ached for Tyler, Emily and Hayley...for all that they miss out on not having Wyatt in their lives. I had to wonder how many more years we will blow up blue balloons to remember our sweet little boy. That on that day 3 years ago I had no idea that we would be blowing up balloons in memory of the baby that was in my tummy. Oh it can be so unreal at times.
We went home and got the kids and went to Wyatt's grave with my parents. We did our balloon release which for the first time the wind wasn't completely blowing things everywhere. It was peaceful and fun to watch them go up in the air all together.
After we released the balloons we released the butterflies. This year since it wasn't windy they stayed around for a long time. The girls got to hold them and play with them. One stayed on my dad's hand forever and I was able to take tons of pictures. I marvel at how beautiful and neat these creatures are. It along with so many other things reminds me that Heavenly Father loves us and given us such beautiful things to enjoy if we will take the time to do it. It was really special. Since they didn't fly away and stayed to play we ended up keeping one that we will release in a couple of weeks if we can keep it alive. I'm so grateful for this little tradition we have started. So grateful to have "Wyatt moments" again.
We then went home and the weather turned really bad...I was so glad we did the releases early that day because it got so windy, cold and hailed that afternoon. It reminded me a lot of the day Wyatt died. It rained most of that day 2 years ago but when Derek and I left the hospital that evening the sun came out. It did the same thing yesterday. I'm not sure if that was a good thing or not...it sure brought back some memories both good and bad.
When we got home we went ice skating. I wanted to do something fun to celebrate Wyatt's life. I did not want it to be a total sad day. We have had too many of those kinds of days so I tried really hard to make it one of happiness and laughter. I asked my kids what they would want to do out of anything for spring break. They all said ice skating, especially Tyler. That is when I decided we would go ice skating together on Wyatt's angel day. We had a really good time and the kids thoroughly enjoyed it. We then came home, had pizza and watched a funny movie. I had debated about watching Wyatt's videos but decided to wait...one of these days we will get them out and I'm sure many tears will be shed but for this day I decided to wait. There will come a day soon that we will do that.
My parents gave me a sweet gift. I was shopping with my mom a couple of months ago and saw this darling tea set. I fell in love with it and dreamed of the fun little tea parties me and the girls could have together. I didn't get it but went back later that week to see if it was still there and it wasn't. I figured it wasn't meant for me or else it would have still been there. Well, my mom had gone back that day and bought it for me and gave it to me on Wyatt's angel day. How completely sweet is that? I'm so grateful for such kind and thoughtful parents. They are simply wonderful! Now my dreams of fun little tea parties will come true.
Another gift that brought me to tears was a little quilt sent from a grandmother of sweet Kamber who passed away 6 months after Wyatt. Kamber's mom has been such an inspiration to me and has helped me in so many ways. She writes about grief and Kamber so wonderfully. She is amazing. I guess Kamber's grandma as been reading my blog and wanted to send something to me. She sent this amazing quilt and a butterfly to put on Wyatt's tree. It came on Wyatt's angel day while we were at the temple. What perfect timing! I cried as I opened it...so very thoughtful and sweet. I LOVE everything about this quilt...the butterfly fabric, the words and the time and effort that was made to make it. I just feel so overwhelmed by so many kind and thoughtful people that I have never even met. I just feel so blessed. Thank you Kamber's grandma...they will always be cherished and when I look at them I will think of Kamber.
I do feel like we had added strength and comfort given to us this past week and yesterday. That prayers had been answered in our behalf. Thank you to each and everyone that has thought of us on this day. Thank you for all the sweet cards, e-mails and messages. I can't even express how much that means to us. How much it means to us that Wyatt is NOT forgotten and that his life and memories live on. That by him lives are being touched and changed for the better. Here are many pictures from our day. I have a few from ice skating that I will post later.
The tea set from my mom. Can't wait to enjoy it with my girls. We will have lots of fun with this!
LOVE this quote from some dear friends of ours. Thank you!