Sunday, January 24, 2010

A new favorite picture and so glad it's over....


This is one of my new favorites of Wyatt... actually each and every picture I have of Wyatt is my favorite but this is my most favorite right now. I remember this moment very clearly. He was scared of the flash on the camera and about started to cry. He is such a sensitive little guy. I remember consoling him and trying to get him to smile. I did finally get a couple of pictures with a small smile that I cherish. These were the last pictures I took of him.
I'm sooooo beyond glad today is over. We as an entire family had to speak on eternal families in church today. BEYOND hard for me. Such a tender subject for our family to have to speak about. So very proud of my kids and husband, they did a great job!
This past week has been one of the worst weeks I've had in a LONG, LONG time. The grief hit me like no other and I've felt like I've been drowning all week long. I'm hoping that now that this is over I can crawl out of the pit I've been in and carry on. Oh how we miss Wyatt. That will never change until he is in our arms. We love him too much to not miss him.
I have so much to post but this speaking thing caught me off guard. I'm now going to have to try and get my house and life back to order. Hopefully I can find some time this week to post some of the things I've been wanting to post. Hopefully since I've gotten so many emotions out this past week I will have a few good ones in return.

10 comments:

Bridget said...

Bless you. And your family. I'm glad you are through this. I have found incredible spiritual strength the few times I've actually spoken in church or taught a class since Evan died. How incredibly hard this must have been. I've never actually had your topic. Wow. I hope you were able to get through it without bursting out crying. Time helps with that...but not much. Emotions are so very close to the surface.

I only cried a little bit during my lesson last week. I know what you mean about the pit. I'm only teaching once a month now. It's just enough for me to make a slow ascent :o).

Wyatt is so cute. Really. And I love his expression in this "new" photo.

Nathan Gedge said...

Wyatt is such a cutie! Love the little pursing of the lip! So precious.. I can't imagine having to talk about eternal families and have it run smoothly. There are so many emotions some still on the surface.. I am glad that it is now behind you... thinking of you

Melissa said...

wow Andrea,
That is such a tough topic! I'm glad that you made it through the week. Hopefully the anticipation was worse than the actual speaking assignment! You are so amazing!

She Made Mention said...

I'm sure that your love for Wyatt just shined while you gave that talk. I'm so glad that you went through with it. It was probably a very strengthening experience, although it made you feel weak, possibly alone, and very sad. I think that there are many that understand your pain and how I wish that could take that pain away, but the time will come where your PAIN will become PURE JOY. I really believe that. Today, it is hard, but someday.... you will be truly blessed. I hope that Stephen and Wyatt are friends & sharing in one another's longing for us. I know there time perspective is much much different- but I know they miss us as much as we miss them. They just see the bigger picture- for I am SURE that all has been revealed to them. Anyways... you post touched my heart. I love that I can connect with you--- You'll have to share some of your ideas for Valentines day, if you have any. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE your Christmas ideas. Please, if you ever feel up to it-- give me a call. I have a question about your blog as well. thanks 2082201599

Bartel's said...

picture perfect.

Alison said...

Dearest Andrea
I often think of you, how strong and positive you are while I know your heart is breaking inside of you, just like mine and every other parent who has lost a child.
You are such an inspiration to so many and it is just amazing how you keep everything together - raising your older children to be the beautiful kids that they are, writing your blog, always leaving a thoughtful and special comment on my blog.And in between you must still do all the other normal day to day things that a wife and mother do.
I wish I was closer so that I could hug you, cry with you and most of all that I could tell you that I know how much you miss your baby boy...ho you long for him every second of every day and night.
Love
Alison

Robyn said...

I am sure your talk was amazing! I wish I could have been there. Your family is so strong. I am sure it was a very special meeting. Love you!

Marc and Megan said...

You have been on my mind a lot lately. I'm so sorry that it has been such a hard week that was topped off with the task of speaking in church on such a tender topic. I know I would have loved to have been there to witness your pure testimony shine through in your words. You are wonderful, Andrea! You're always in my thoughts... I hope there is some sunshine around the corner. Love you!

~plaid said...

I am glad you got through the talks. I am sure you were quite inspirational! I know how it can bring the focus in on all these difficult feelings that grieving brings with it. I do hope you have some time to recuperate now, and have a lot of comfort in the days to come. I am glad you have the photos you have, and yet it breaks my heart thinking about how limited a time we had with them. In some ways, I'm jealous that you have such wonderful pictures because you have an amazing talent to capture such a cute little guy in really intimate perspectives. I have photos, but not the quality that you have. I hope that these tangible memories help you. I appreciate that you've shared this special moment you had with Wyatt with us. I do hope someday in the eternities we get the chance to be neighbors to raise our little ones in a world without the hurts and evils we have today. Just keep holding on...

Jen said...

I love that photo--so precious.