Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Left Out

I just got back from taking Emily and Hayley to a cheerleading clinic at the high school. As I looked around the gym at all the little boys that would be around Wyatt's age it just breaks my heart. I thought of all of these boys that will be trying out for the basketball team or the football team or other clubs and my Wyatt won't be a part of that. It's hard feeling like Wyatt is being left out on so many experiences. I guess I'm just having one of those days when I miss being with my little boy more than most.
These pictures were taken at Valentines time about 1 month before Wyatt passed away. It's some of the only pictures of me with Wyatt and Derek and I with Wyatt. I'm so grateful for them.


Jill said...

I have never seen those pictures before. He has the sweetest face! I know it may not help much but when I read this post I couldn't help but think of all the things Wyatt is doing right now (not that we know). I know the Lord is keeping him busy doing important things we can't even comprehend. Kinda makes me feel like I'm "missing out." :) I love you Andrea! Keep trudging through those tough days!

Linda Pickles said...

Hang in there, Andrea. You're staying busy and that is good. We love you dearly and pray for you and your family always. I loved Jill's comment of "trudging through tough days." Trudging is a good word--it's not easy, but it is still going forward--and that is the goal.
Feel my arms around you.

Aunt Linda

Gedge family said...

You are not alone. I , too, experience those sad moments. I wish things were different for both of us.


Gourley Family said...

I stumbled upon your blog through the blogging world through Megan. We are in the process of adopting, and she is friends with some of our friends that have already adopted.I love to read her words. They are balm to my aching soul. I love your pictures of Wyatt and your family. I am sad you can not be there for Saturday, but we will do our best to honor sweet Wyatt and send some pictures your way!!
Heart hugs,

John and Leanne said...

I agree with Jill, but it doesn't change the fact that you still ache for him, and want to watch him participate in all the activities. I read this post last night, and was heartbroken because I sat there next to you at the cheerleading clinic with Brig in my lap. I wanted to comment last night, but was lost for words, what could I say?-absolutely nothing, other than I am so sorry, and I hope to be of any help, sometimes that is not always the case I know when Brig is a constant reminder of what you have lost. I have to comment though about your sweet Haley, she was just adorable, oh I can't get over how fun she was to watch, and she has such a reverence that is undescribeable, truly a special daughter of god. You are the BEST!!!

Natalie said...

Those are precious pictures. I'm sorry for those days and I know those days will always be there. I just want you to know, I love you!

Miss Molly said...

I came to your blog this morning from the angel children blog. Again, my heart breaks over and over for all of us who have lost our dear children. I see that Wyatt's birthday is approaching soon. I will say a special prayer for you on Sept. 21st. What an absolute doll. I can't tell if you live here in Utah or not, but if you do, I would love to get together sometime. I have found another mom who lost her daughter in January and it is so wonderful to be with someone who understands. God bless you!!!!!

Molly Jackson

Leslie said...

i found your blog through marc and megans.
i just wanted to say, i am so sorry.
wyatt is just beautiful.
my husband actually passed away about nine months ago. we were trying to have another baby and the name that my husband had most recently talked about for a boy was the name 'wyatt'. so, seeing your little boy's name brought back that memory.
i am so sorry for your loss.

Parker's Mom said...

I just found your blog through a friend. I am a mother to an angel, too. I hope you don't mind me reading about your beautiful son. Thank you for sharing his story. It's nice to know I'm not alone.