Thursday, August 28, 2008
Posted by Andrea at 11:48 PM
In answer to prayer, Wyatt Lewis Larsen joined our family September 21, 2007. In response to a higher call he peacefully left us March 13, 2008, after complications due to heart failure. Wyatt has blue eyes, strawberry blond hair, and an infectious smile. Wyatt brought love with him, and returns to his Heavenly Father with our love. We have committed ourselves to living that one day our reunion with him might be eternal. "No empty chairs."
We express heartfelt thanks to all the medical staff who lovingly cared for Wyatt over the past few days.
Funeral services will be held March 19th, 2008.
Posted by Andrea at 9:27 PM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Posted by Andrea at 11:46 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Posted by Andrea at 10:09 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
This has been an emotional week. My sweet Aunt Luana passed away and her funeral was on Tuesday the 19th. It was exactly 5 months to the day that we had Wyatt's funeral. They used the same mortuary as we had for Wyatt so there were so many similarities. It was hard for me because it brought back all those memories of 5 months ago. My heart now goes out to her kids and husband. I know how it feels to have that void in your life that can't be replaced with anything else.
Posted by Andrea at 10:00 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I have never been a great reader or loved it like some do. But since Wyatt died it's been one of my greatest comforts. The words I've read and found have helped me through some of my darkest moments. I could list book after book and talk after talk that has helped me. How grateful I am for them. This morning I pulled out one of my favorites by Neal A. Maxwell called "All these things shall give thee experience"--thank you Doug and Jill for giving this book to us while at the hospital with Wyatt. There are a couple of chapters I've read and reread over and over again. I gain something more from it each time I read. There is such comfort in his words. Anyway, I wanted to quote a few things that stood out to me today. The first is a quote from C.S. Lewis referring to "all these things shall give thee experience" he said:
"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that
house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He's
getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew
that those jobs needed doing so you are not surprised. But presently, He
starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem
to make sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He
is building quite a different house from the one you thought of.--throwing out a
wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making
courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little
cottage: but He is building a palace."
I'm feeling like a new wing is being formed on my house. It truly hurts and really doesn't make sense to me but I know Heavenly Father has a greater plan and he's making me into a palace instead of the cottage I thought I would be.
The second quote that stuck out at me this morning is one by President Spencer W. Kimball he is talking about tragedies. He said:
"Could the Lord have prevented these tragedies? The answer is, Yes. The
Lord is omnipotent, with all power to control our lives, save us pain, prevent
all accidents, drive all planes and cars, feed us, protect us, save us from
labor, effort, sickness, even from death, if he will. But he will
not. We should be able to understand this, because we can realize how
unwise it would be for us to shield our children from all effort, from
disappointments, temptations, sorrows, and suffering....If we looked at
mortality as the whole of existence, then pain, sorrow, failure, and short life
would be calamity. But if we look upon life as an eternal things
stretching far into the pre-earth past and on into the eternal post-death
future then all happenings may be put into proper perspective."
There are some days that I wonder if I'm going to make it through this long and difficult life. It's just hard. I miss my Wyatt. There is a void in my life and a gaping hole in my heart that will never be filled until my Wyatt is in my arms again. That's when I have to look at the eternal perspective-- the post-death future. This life is just a small moment compared to the eternal aspect of things. I gain such comfort in this. I will have a wonderful "post-death" future with my Wyatt... FOREVER.
Posted by Andrea at 10:37 AM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I saw this painting at Costco a few months ago and it took my breath away. The instant I saw it I thought of Wyatt. I really think this baby looks a lot like him. The baby in this painting looks about the age Wyatt was when he passed away. Wyatt was at that age where he was grabbing at everything. So, to see the sweet little hand in this painting trying to grab his mothers hand and his other hand grabbing his foot reminds me so much of Wyatt right before his death. I don't have any pictures of him the few weeks before he died so I guess the reason this painting touches my heart so much is because it helps me remember my Wyatt right before he passed away. I also loved that the mom was touching his feet. As you can tell from many of my posts I really enjoyed Wyatt's little feet. They were so cute and chubby. He always loved it when I rubbed them. I miss that so much!
Yesterday was the 5 month marker since Wyatt died. He has almost been gone away from me as long as he was with me. I can't believe it's been 5 months. I look back on those months and they are ones I hope I never have to live again. I feel like I've been living in a fog. The grief, sorrow and pain have not left. With that said I also feel like I have been blessed beyond anything with sweet tender mercies from a loving Heavenly Father. He truly has helped me make it to where I am today. Thanks to so many of you for being the instrument in which those tender mercies were fulfilled. My heart is sad but also grateful.
Posted by Andrea at 1:34 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
It was an emotional one for me. I've so enjoyed having them with me this summer. I shed some tears as each of them left for school. I took Emily to her class and then on our way home I felt like I needed to spend a little time at Wyatt's grave. The cemetery is such a peaceful place and I find comfort there. When I pulled into the cemetery I felt like there was something new. OK that is really pathetic of me when I know there is something new at the cemetery. It was a big beautiful butterfly balloon. It really took me by surprise because it was on Wyatt's grave. I figured it was my sister and niece that put it on this past weekend before they left and I was right. I can't even express the gratitude and love I felt when I saw that balloon. I began crying and at that moment I felt like Wyatt was near. I've only felt that a few times mainly when I've had a few of my "Wyatt moments" but this morning as I sat there and cried as overwhelming gratitude filled my heart for all the wonderful people in my life I felt like he was aware of me. It was a special moment for me.
On Sunday my other niece Natalie and her family took time out of their busy schedule to drive to Wyatt's grave and when I saw the plumeria flower she had put on Wyatt's marker I cried. Plumeria flowers are one of my favorites and it touched me so much that she would be so thoughtful. It's such a touching thing for me when someone puts something on Wyatt's grave. I'm really not sure why. Maybe because it shows me that I'm not the only one caring for his sacred ground and I'm not the only one that is thinking of him. It touches me that they would take time out of their schedule to drive off the beaten path to visit his grave.
Hayley then had her first Princess birthday party to attend. I've really struggled with the thought that in 2 years all of my kids will be in school. I was suppose to have 5 more years and I was planning on making them the very best. I really was enjoying that time with Hayley and Wyatt each day. Now I only have 2 more before all of my kids are in school. That will be a sad day for me.
Posted by Andrea at 10:49 PM
Posted by Andrea at 12:04 AM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
"We have more friends behind the veil than on this side, and
they will hail us more joyfully than you were ever welcomed by your parents and
friends in this world; and you will rejoice more when you meet them than you
ever rejoiced to see a friend in this life; and then we shall go on from step to
step, from rejoicing to rejoicing, and from one intelligence and power to
another, our happiness becoming more and more exquisite and sensible as we
proceed in the words and powers of life."
Posted by Andrea at 9:46 AM