Monday, June 30, 2008
Dear Larsen Family: First off, I'm not crazy, even though you don't know me. I'm totally sane, and a temple recommend holder. I was searching for the "every chair filled" Benson quote through google for a lesson for my Young Women tonight. I found the quote on your blog. Thank you. But thank you again for the following...I saw a butterfly today. Allow me to explain.I was reading 3rd Nephi chapter 27, V:2. Jesus asks his disciples "what will ye that I shall give unto you". The words came at me with 100 times the force than I read before. I pictured myself there, and thought "if I could have ANYTHING from the savior, knowing that he would give it, what would it be?"At that very moment I said a very very sincere prayer, that I would feel my brother's presence in my life more fully. My brother passed away almost 9 years ago, the first day I was in the MTC. I left it at that. Then, for 3 days after that prayer, I felt this overwhelming feeling in my heart-- the purest joy I'd felt for years. I couldn't put a finger on it. I felt pure love. I felt it in the stillest moments and in my daily life too. I kept trying to think about what I was so happy about, as if it was some upcoming event that was going to be great(vacation? visitor? a raise?) Not earth shattering, but just pure and personal.Then when I was walking with my husband and two boys the other night I thought about it again. I was still trying to source it, just because I wanted the feeling to stay forever.Then, when I was on the tennis court, in the middle of an instruction-- with my racket flying every which way, I noticed a small piece of paper flying around on the court.I looked closer to see it was a pure white butterfly. The words came clear in my mind "Barry's close by!" Then I came home and couldn't find my Benson quote, and was lead to your blog. I thought about how wonderful that Barry was there, even when I wasn't looking. When I came home from my mission, I got released and got the following blessing:"those thoughts and ideas came from your brother. He prays for you." How interesting that an angel would pray for me? And how interesting that those little glimpses of inspiration come from those who know us best. Moroni taught that angels speak by the power of the holy ghost. Would not Wyatt be the one who would bring a message to you more clear than any other angel right now? I am sure all those great thoughts and resolutions you have came through your little baby. In one blog you mentioned how you carried him for 9 months and how hard it was being sick. Perhaps this was one of those great times where he got to know you best. He was getting to know you and learning how to connect to you in a way no one else can. How amazing is that? So... now that I've spilled all my guts with someone I don't even know, I want to thank you again for the quote, and exchange it for one of mine. From Dallin H. Oaks:"In the gospel of Jesus Christ you have help from both sides of the veil and you must never forget that. When disappointment and discouragement strike, and they will, you must never forget that if our eyes could be opened we would see chariots of fire as far as the eye could see riding at wreckless speed to come to our protection (see 2nd Kings 6:16-17). They will always be there, these armies of heaven, in defense of Abraham's seed."Wyatt is your "wreckless speed" angel. Butterflies are the smallest of ways he lets you know he's there. Bigger are the thoughts and inspirations he puts in your heart. You will feel it for the rest of your life, until that wonderful day.
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Saturday, June 28, 2008
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Sunday, June 22, 2008
Today at church in Sunday school we read in Alma about the resurrection. Now whenever I hear about the resurrection I get the feelings of hope, joy and extreme excitement. I also have a greater reverence for that most wonderful gift of the Savior. It is real to me now. I have always marveled at this most wonderful gift given to us and it's always been something special but now since Wyatt died it is so much more than that to me. As they discussed these verses in Sunday school with not to much feeling expressed I wanted to shout out how wonderful the resurrection is. It is so tangible to me now. It is the hope I get each day that I will have my Wyatt again. I couldn't shout out in Sunday school because I was trying not to cry.
As we read the verses something stuck out to me. Alma 11:45: ..."that they can die no more; their spirits united with their bodies never to be divided;" This wonderful truth tells me that I will never have to say goodbye to my Wyatt ever again. I will have him forever and ever and I will never have to see him go. I will have him throughout eternity never having to bid farewell. How grateful I am for my Savior, it is because of him that I have hope each day. It is because of him that Wyatt is saved and has made it to the celestial kingdom. It is because of him that Wyatt will be resurrected and I will get to hold him in my arms again and I will never have to let go. It is because of him that we can repent when we have done something wrong and we will be forgiven. It is because of him that we all will be resurrected and live forever. Oh, how grateful I am for my Savior more than I ever have been before!
Posted by Andrea at 8:02 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I'm grateful for the fingerprints from Hayley on my nice clean windows. I grateful for the messes and dirty dishes left by little one. I'm grateful for the hugs, kisses and sweetness from Tyler, Emily and Hayley. These things show me that yes I still have 3 beautiful children to love and care for. We have talked about how wonderful it is going to be in the millennium when we all get to watch little Wyatt crawl, walk and talk. It will be a glorious day.
We went to the Orem summerfest, parade and fireworks last weekend. Hayley thought the carnival was Disneyland. Needless to say she loved it --so did Tyler and Emily. Thanks Grandma and Grandpa for taking us to the carnival.
Thanks Kurt and Shanna for getting us spots for the parade and for the yummy sno-cones.
Posted by Andrea at 1:38 PM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
"Life sometimes seems a parched and barren desert, when, as a matter of fact,How grateful I am to so many of you and the kindness you have shown me and my family. Thank you for listening to me, comforting me and giving me hope for the future.
there is comfort, even happiness within our grasp if we could or would but reach
for it. Next to a sense of kinship with God comes the helpfulness, encouragement
and inspiration of friends(and family). Friendship is a sacred possession. As
air, water and sunshine are to flowers, trees and verdure, so smiles sympathy
and love of friends(and family) are to the daily life of man. "To live, laugh,
love ones' friends, and be loved by them is to bask in the sunshine of life."
Posted by Andrea at 10:36 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Oh, how Wyatt loved his dad. Derek spent a lot of time with Wyatt. One reason was he was at home a lot because work was very slow. Another reason is he knew this would be his last time to enjoy his own little baby in our home. He spent most nights holding Wyatt either while he watched TV or while he was playing the Wii. Wyatt loved to be in his dad's arms while playing the Wii. Derek was always so willing to change a diaper or walk with Wyatt while he was fussy. He would rub his feet and make him smile and laugh. It's been hard for me to see Dad's with their little babies playing and enjoying them knowing that my husband wasn't going to get to do that with his baby anymore. Derek has been the strength and comfort for our family the past few months. He has been the steady one and has tried making our lives that much better during such a difficult time. How grateful I am that I have such a wonderful husband and that he is such a wonderful father to all of his children. Tyler, Emily, Hayley and Wyatt are the luckiest children in the world. Happy Father's Day Derek! We love you!
Posted by Andrea at 11:24 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
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Friday, June 6, 2008
"While it is true that God has conferred upon mortal men the priesthood by
which, within certain limitations, they have power to act in his name, it is not
true that he has conferred upon them the keys of life and death. These keys are
held in hands higher than those of mortals. They are used only with a proper
regard for the past, present and future; our condition in the spirit world, our
condition here and our condition in the world to come. Mortal men have not
sufficient knowledge of all these conditions to use power over life and death
wisely and justly; and therefore this power is, to a great extent, and always in
the final issue, withheld from them. By the prayer of faith they can often
influence the result, but the decision always rest with God."
I feel that there were enough prayers being prayed in behalf of Wyatt that if he could have lived he would have.
President Spencer W. Kimball said: "I am positive in my mind that the Lord has
planned our destiny. We can shorten our lives but I think we cannot lengthen
them very much. Sometime we'll understand fully, and when we see back from the
vantage point of the future we shall be satisfied with many of the happenings of
this life which seemed so difficult for us to comprehend. We knew before we were
born that we were coming to the earth for bodies and experience and that we
would have joys and sorrows, pain and comforts, ease and hardships, health and
sickness, successes and disappointments, and we knew also that we would die. We
accepted all these eventualities with a glad heart, eager to accept both the
favorable and unfavorable. We were undoubtedly willing to have a mortal body
even if it were deformed. We eagerly accepted the chance to come earthward even
though it might be for a day, a year or a century. Perhaps we were not so much
concerned whether we should die of disease, of accident, or senility. We were
willing to come, and take life as it came and as we might organize and control
it, and this without murmur, complaint or unreasonable demands...."
While at the hospital D was joking like he always does and said "if Wyatt just used us to get a body and rack up a big medical bill he is going to have a little chat with me in the next life. " I guess Wyatt and D will be having a little chat in the next life. I know with all my heart that Wyatt is where he is suppose to be. But with that knowledge it doesn't take away the sorrow and grief I feel for the great loss I have experienced. I truly miss him with all my heart. I'm looking forward to the next life when I will be with him again.
President John Taylor once said: "that the best explanation he could offer why
so many little children among the Saints were called away, notwithstanding the
great faith and power of the priesthood exercised to keep them here, was that
they were bright and noble spirits who held important positions in the kingdom
of God in the spirit world, from which they could not long be spared., They were
given brief furloughs, long enough to come to earth, take upon themselves bodies
of flesh and bone that they might be prepared for a resurrection to a kingdom of
glory; and after a short experience in mortality were called back to resume
important labors in a higher sphere."
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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
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